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    another rambling

    another rambling

    I can only say… my 2 weeks’ slack in time have been boring and horrifiying.

    There’s the just stay at home with my comp time and then the omg-my-comp-is-dead time.

    Anyway I hope to make some chances to my remaining one week before school starts, well that is if there’s any place that I can visit.. as usual alone I guess, since everyone’s busy with their own wonderful lively lives. And I hope my comp will behave now after that expensive doctor’s check yesterday.

    I seriously need to get out and not those to the library and in between trips.

    Or maybe I should accept my fate that this is my life.

    Oh yeah I need to find someway to earn money… since I’m torn between Namie’s Best Fiction and Hitomi’s Flare and then there’s this “A COMPLETE ~ALL SINGLES~” for Ayu’s 10th Anniversary…

    ARGH!

    Life is horrible!

    キ・セ・キ
    滝沢秀明

    作詩:Kenn Kato 作曲:Hironari Tatsumi

    渋滞のガラス越しに
    君を見た気がした
    声にならないその叫びは
    行く先探してた

    ジユウとコドクなんて
    おなじものなのかな?
    ないものばかり求めながら
    失うのかな?

    鮮やかな季節が
    想い出に溶けたら
    むじゃきなあの瞳だけが
    この胸を焦がし続ける
    もう二度とあの日に戻れない

    めぐりめぐる軌跡が
    映す君の笑顔が
    目には見えない 翼をくれた
    それに気づけずに
    君とぼくの間隔は
    知らず知らず離れた
    わがまますぎた 弱さをぼくは
    いつの日にか越えてみせる

    もう誰も信じないと
    ずっと決めつけてた
    ひとりでも生きてはいけると
    思い込んでた

    君といた記憶が
    すこしずつ薄れてく
    不意に苦しくなる それは
    息もできなくなるくらい
    それでも歩いてみせるから

    めぐりめぐる軌跡が
    足りなかったなにかは
    この手の中に握りしめてる
    痛みのカケラと…
    指に触れた感覚が
    その寝顔の輪郭が
    抱きしめていたあのぬくもりが
    揺れる胸をすりぬけてく

    めぐりめぐる軌跡が
    ヒカル君の涙が
    目に映らない 勇気(チカラ)をくれた
    だからここにいる
    君とぼくの永遠が
    伝えているなにかが
    すべてをイキルシルシにかえて
    いまも胸に輝いてる

    また出逢える奇跡が
    もしぼくらにあるなら
    今度はきっと きっと必ず
    君を守り抜いてみせる

    Juutai no garasu goshi ni
    Kimi wo mita ki ga shita
    Koe ni naranai sono sakebi wa
    Iku saki sagashiteta

    Jiyuu to kodoku nante
    Onaji mono na no kana
    Nai mono bakari motomenagara
    Ushinau no kana

    Azayaka na kisetsu ga
    Omoide ni toketara
    Mujaki na ano hitomi dake ga
    Kono mune wo kogashitsuzukeru
    Mou nido to ano hi ni modorenai…

    Meguri meguru kiseki ga
    Utsusu kimi no egao ga
    Me ni wa mienai…tsubasa wo kureta
    Sore ni kizukezu ni
    Kimi to boku no kankaku wa
    Shirazu shirazu hanareta
    Wagamama sugita yowasa wo boku wa
    Itsu no hi ni ka koete miseru

    Mou dare mo shinjinai to
    Zutto kimetsuketeta
    Hitori de mo ikite wa ikeru to
    Omoikondeta

    Kimi to ita kioku ga
    Sukoshizutsu usureteku
    Fui ni kurushiku naru…sore wa
    Iki mo dekinaku naru kurai
    Soredemo aruite miseru kara

    Meguri meguru kiseki ga
    Tarinakatta nanika wa
    Kono te no naka ni nigirishimeteru
    Itami no kakera to…
    Yubi ni kureta kankaku ga
    Sono negao no rinkaku ga
    Dakishimete ita ano nukumori ga
    Yureru mune wo surinuketeku

    Meguri meguru kiseki ga
    Hikaru kimi no namida ga
    Me ni utsuranai
    Chikara wo kureta
    Dakara koko ni iru
    Kimi to boku no eien ga
    Tsutaete iru nanika ga
    Subete wo ikiru shirushi ni kaete
    Ima mo mune ni kagayaiteru

    Mata deaeru kiseki ga
    Moshi bokura ni aru nara
    Kondo wa kitto… kitto kanarazu
    Kimi wo mamorinuite miseru

    Translations
    I thought I saw you
    In the crowd outside the window
    The scream I couldn’t voice
    Looked for a place to go

    Maybe freedom and loneliness
    Are the same thing?
    Maybe as we long for what we don’t have
    We lose what we do have

    Whe that bright season
    Melts into my memories
    Only those innocent eyes
    Will keep burning in my heart
    I can never go back to that day…

    Your smile is reflected
    The passing, passing seasons
    You gave me…invisible wings
    Not realising that
    Our feelings
    Unconsciously drifted apart
    One day I’ll get through
    This selfish weakness

    I’d made up my mind for good
    Not to trust anyone else
    I thought
    I could live alone

    The memories of my time with you
    Grow fainter, little by little
    And suddenly it…gets painful
    So bad I can’t breathe
    But I’ll keep walking

    The passing, passing miracle
    Wasn’t enough
    I’m clutching something in my hand
    With the pieces of my pain…
    The feeling you gave my feelings
    The outline of your sleeping face
    The warmth I felt when I held you
    Flits through my trembling heart

    The passing, passing miracle
    And your shining tears
    You gave me the strength
    Not to show them in my eyes
    So here I am
    Our eternity
    Is telling me something
    I’ll turn it into a sign that I’ll survive anything
    Even now, it still shines in my heart

    If we could have the miracle
    Of meeting again
    This time, surely…surely
    I know I’ll protect you

    credits: x x


    Otsuka Ai – Planetarium

    Otsuka Ai - Planetarium

    Otsuka Ai – プラネタリウム (Planetarium)

    夕月夜 顔だす 消えてく 子供の声
    遠く遠く この空のどこかに 君はいるんだろう
    夏の終わりに2人で抜け出した この公園で見つけた
    あの星座 何だか 覚えてる?

    会えなくても記憶をたどって 同じ幸せを見たいんだ
    あの香りとともに花火がぱっと開く

    行きたいよ君のところへ 今すぐかけだして行きたいよ
    まっ暗で何も見えない怖くても大丈夫
    数えきれない星空が今もずっとここにあるんだよ
    泣かないよ 昔 君と見たきれいな空だったから

    あの道まで響く 靴の音が耳に残る
    大きな自分の影を見つめて想うのでしょう
    ちっとも変わらないはずなのに せつない気持ちふくらんでく
    どんなに想ったって君はもういない

    行きたいよ君のそばに 小さくても小さくても
    1番に君が好きだよ 強くいられる
    願いを流れ星に そっと唱えてみたけれど
    泣かないよ 届くだろう きれいな空に

    会えなくても記憶をたどって 同じ幸せを見たいんだ
    あの香りとともに花火がぱっと開く

    行きたいよ君のところへ 小さな手をにぎりしめて
    泣きたいよ それはそれは きれいな空だった
    願いを流れ星に そっと唱えてみたけれど
    泣きたいよ 届かない思いをこの空に…

    yuutsukuyo kaodasu kieteku kodomo no koe
    tooku tooku konosora no dokoka ni kimi ha irun darou
    natsu no owari ni futari de nukedashita kono kouen de mitsuketa
    ano seiza nandaka oboeteru?

    aenakutemo kioku wo tadotte onaji shiawase wo mitai nda
    ano kaori to tomo ni hanabi ga patto hiraku

    ikitai yo kimi no tokoro he ima sugu kakedashite ikitai yo
    makkura de nanimo mienai kowakutemo daijoubu
    kazoekirenai hoshizora ga ima mo zutto koko ni aru nda yo
    nakanai yo mukashi kimi to mita kirei na sora datta kara

    ano michi made hibiku kutsu no ne ga mimi ni nokoru
    ookina jibun no kage wo mitsumete omou no deshou
    chittomo kawaranai hazu nanoni setsunai kimochi fukurandeku
    donna ni omottatte kimi ha mou inai

    ikitai yo kimi no soba ni chiisakutemo chiisakutemo
    ichiban ni kimi ga suki da yo tsuyoku irareru
    negai wo nagare boshi ni sotto tonaetemitakeredo
    nakanai yo todoku darou kirei na sora ni

    aenakutemo kioku wo tadotte onaji shiawase wo mitai nda
    ano kaori to tomo ni hanabi ga patto hiraku

    ikitai yo kimi no tokoro he chiisana te wo nigirishimete
    nakitai yo soreha soreha kireina sora datta
    negai wo nagare boshi ni sotto tonaete mitakeredo
    nakitai yo todokanai omoi wo kono sora ni…

    Translation:
    Evening approaches and the voices of night-smiling children fade
    I know that you are somewhere under this sky, far, far away
    At summer’s end, we snuck away together, we found this park
    I kind of remember that constellation

    Even if I don’t meet you, I can search for memories
    Of the same sort of happiness.
    Both the smell and fireworks going “bang”

    I want to go to where you are
    I want to start running there soon
    I can’t see anything in the inky darkness
    Even if I’m scared I’ll be okay
    The wisdom of this clear sky
    Is here now all the time.
    I didn’t cry when I saw you in the past
    Because the sky was clear.

    Daily, from that road over there, I can only hear one sound.
    Maybe you’ll stare at your big shadow.
    It is not in the least expected to change.
    A sad feeling expands inside you.
    This is the “you’re not there” kind of feeling.

    I really want to go and be next to you
    Even though I am really, really small
    I love you the most
    I can be strong
    I suddenly try to make a wish on a falling star
    Maybe I’ll reach the point where I don’t cry
    In a clear sky.

    Even if I’m not with you, I can search for memories
    Of the same sort of happiness.
    Like the smell, together with fireworks going “bang”

    I want to go to your place (The place that is with you…)
    A small hand clenching yours,
    I want to cry; that is a beautiful sky.
    I suddenly try to make a wish on a falling star
    Under this sky, I don’t think that I want to cry.

    credits:enlightened0ne

    This is the only song that I like from her… Thanks to HYD2 for using it as the interlude.


    Starting of my 2 week break

    Starting of my 2 week break

    Starting of my 2 week break

    Yup my job has ended and I hope that someday I will be back there, perhaps during the hols?

    Anyway I realize tons of people are going for camps, everyone but moi..

    本気です。。。

    I’m already studying in an isolated course with risky future, with no one that I’m close to – not that I have tons of close friends, finger nos only. Anyway yeah how am I suppose to survive in school then?

    私は哀れですか?

    Perhaps I should suggest an outing and also to give Maine her present which she hasn’t tell me…

    The 100 10cent coins sound promising.


    Countdown to 2 days

    Countdown to 2 days

    2 days left… I will miss them – funny uh coming from me and in addition they are all so much older than I am but then again they are the kindest to me at least I feel that my presence will help them in their tasks. This is something very unbelievable after all no one sees me as an important person, whether I’m there or not, I’m just an extra. My presence/ absence? No difference…

    Tonikaku I’m really shocked when they gave me another farewell/thank you gift – I mean they have treated me to so many good food, and there’s the nike bag. Now I have this beautiful Adidas watch – which I’m so afraid of spoiling it hence no idea where’s the safest place to store the watch in the box and there’s the card…

    My mum was shocked by their gifts and has decided to make them some agar agar on friday- my last day. I hope they will like it. Too bad my boss will be on leave until monday, otherwise she can eat the agar agar. Today my upper boss treated me lunch again. This week I did save most of my lunch money… indeed.

    I’m too lazy to take out the bag and keep it… so no pictures for it/

    みんな、ほんとうにありがとう

    ぼくは泣いている。。。